Not by coincidence

So, I have been going to this Bible Study on Wednesday nights.  My teacher is just simply awesome.  She is one of the most godly women that I have ever known.  I have learned so much in the past 12 weeks.  Anyway, she was telling us a story on Wednesday night about her previous weekend.  She said that she had heard this new song called, "Blessings."  She really wanted to look it up on-line, but had to get out the door to head to a retreat.  She said a simple prayer - telling God that she really wanted to hear this song, but she had to get going and she would do it when she got back home on Sunday.  After having met some wonderful women in her small group at this conference, they gathered everyone there for worship through song.  Guess what the first song was?  "Blessings".  She knew right then that the Lord was talking directly to her - it wasn't by coincidence.

So, of course, I thought this was a pretty cool story, but didn't really think too terribly much about it after I left church.  On my way to work the very next day, as I was driving down the road, something came over me..the Holy Spirit I firmly believe.. and Kyle Ray came into my mind.  I immediately thought about Angela.  Then I just sat there and cried.  I had all of these visions of Kyle come into my mind.  His smile, his laughter, his seriousness, his gentleness, his genuineness.  I just simply cried.  Then I had visions of what Heaven might be like.  As we have talked in our Bible study on Wed night, Mrs Dianne has talked about meeting Jesus and how awesome it will be, how glorious it will be, how joyful it will be.  I envisioned Kyle in Heaven with this bright light that I simply can't explain.  I cried some more.

Then something drew me to the radio - something..again the Holy Spirit, I believe.. urged me to turn the radio up.  Guess what was on the radio?!  It was the song, "Blessings."  I had never actually heard the song before, but as soon as I heard it, I knew what it was.  I cried.  It is simply amazing how the LORD will comfort you even when it seems like the oddest time - while I am driving down the road, thinking about my nephew.  I knew right then that the Lord was talking directly to me - it wasn't by coincidence.

I miss you Kyle Ray.  I love you.  Thank you LORD for loving us and providing us comfort, even in moments we are sad and simply still do not understand.

Here is an excerpt of the song...

Blessings by Laura Story

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace

Comfort for family, protection while we sleep

We pray for healing, for prosperity

We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering

All the while, You hear each spoken need

Yet love is way too much to give us lesser things

'Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops

What if Your healing comes through tears

What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near

What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom

Your voice to hear

We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near

We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love

As if every promise from Your Word is not enough

All the while, You hear each desperate plea

And long that we'd have faith to believe

'Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops

What if Your healing comes through tears

What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near

What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise